Forrest, Forrest Gump.

These past few days have been hard. It's hurt. And I've been thinking about a lot. I'm pretty sure that most of you reading this know some of the things that have happened in the past. I hate talking about it, and I'm known to not say anything at all.

It's hard not to feel alone. Even if you know your friends are only a phone call away, or you live with one of your best friends and they are always there, sometimes you just realize that it's only you. Or you don't want to say anything, or always tell someone the same thing all the time. (This is starting to get sad, don't worry, it gets better!) So my friends started writing a blog and encouraged me to do the same. Then I saw how many people read it, and how many people loved it, and the pictures and comments and everything and I couldn't help but smile! I didn't feel as alone. So...thanks guys, I love you all sewwww much. <3

So I came home this weekend. I got home yesterday. I love coming home. There is just something that feels comfortable about Point Pleasant that you can't help but love. My mom and I had a lovely talk on the way home and then went to the McDonald's house for the greatest pizza ever. Seriously. So while the adults talked and drank wine, Colleen, Laur and I watched the famous Tom Cruise in "Oblivion." mind. blown. Literally had to stop the movie a few times to discuss what the heck was going on. Ya know that sci-fi film nonsense.

After we got home and I started on some homework my mom gave me some advice:

"I know it hurts. There will be happy days and there will be sad days. But no matter what you have to keep going. You have to remember the happy moments that you have with your friends and family and doing the things that you love. But remember that you are allowed to have those sad days too." thanks, mom. <3

Determined to get my homework done and gone I got an early start after chocolate chip pancakes. delish. So, in the spirit of getting work done, after my mom got back from a haircut I convinced her to go to the movies. We went to see the movie "Gravity" with Sandra Bullock and George Clooney. it. was. so. amazing. Go see it. The graphics were absolutely INCREDIBLE. seriously. go see it. I did get a bit nauseous in the beginning, but eventually you got used to it. It would be really cool to be in zero gravity and float around. See the Earth from outside. Watching the sunrise over the Earth and the endless stars in space...I'll just leave it at the movie was incredible. wow.

So after we got back from the movie I actually got all of my work done. Then I had a great home - cooked dinner of chicken and rice and peas and broccoli in this great sauce stuff. amazing. We turned on Nashville and made chocolate chip cookies (I like  chocolate...can ya tell?)

By then it was about time for my Disney pic of the day.


Disney Pic of the Day: Mickey Mouse

For some reason I think that the Disney sketches look better in black and white. I guess that 101 Dalmatians it is tomorrow huh? (wink wink) ;) We'll see. 

I also like sunsets. Sunsets are my favorite.

So I was watching Forrest Gump while I was drawing. Of course tears were shed, it's a great movie. But there was one part that really hit me. Forrest was running across America and he said something that his mama told him:

"You've got to put the past behind you before you can move on."

I'll have to work on it. That's all I've got to say about that.


Well, that's life.

Rawr.

No Disney pics these last two days. Sorry folks. Yesterday was insane and today I just wasn't feelin' it. Just wait for this weekend. Epic.

But here's a tiger just 'cause:

I drew it a little while ago.

So yesterday made me want to throw my computer across the room at my computer science professor because of the lab that he assigned us. The lab had three sections. First section, easy. Second section, easier. Third section, so incredibly difficult on something that WE HAVEN'T EVEN LEARNED. In fact, in the directions we were even told to look at a completely different chapter to figure it out!! what. is. that. I mean come onnnnnn. ugh.

Our lab was a partner project and I kid you not, my partner and I worked on our lab from 11:30-4 and 7:30-10:45 with not even a glimmer of hope. oh wells. On a separate note, I got my first Project back for CS. 80. I seem to be going on a streak here. I got 20 points off for ONE dumb change. As you can see, my professor is driving me a bit crazy. It's alright. I'm determined to get an A in this class. and I will.

So after completely wasting my wonderful Wednesday, I woke up for an optimistic Thursday. And once again...I was driven crazy. I cannot wait for the weekend. PLEASE COME SOONER. I had class, a meeting and two other classes before I nearly sprinted back to my room and dance around because I was done for the day. Ate some popcorn, watched New Girl, had a great dinner with Selena (and Jill showed up too!), headed to the lib to read a bit, then headed back to the room.

Then I got locked out. fan.freakin.tastic.

I waited in the lounge for Deanna to come back and now here I am. what a day.



While I was in class today I had a thought:

Isn't it interesting how you can look at someone and picture who they will become? That sounds weird. I mean that some people just have personalities that you can see being careers. There is this girl in one of my classes that I can see being the perfect teacher. And I can see one kid sitting in a Starbucks in the city on his laptop. And there is another girl that I can see living at the beach or California and surfing all of the time. This reminds me of a quote from Paper Towns:

"There are so many people. It is easy to forget how full the world is of people, full to bursting, and each of them imaginable and consistently misimagined."

Just a cool idea.


My brain is fried. Here's to a great Friday.

So, that's life.

Jasmine.

Yay it's October! I seriously love the fall. There's something about it that's just...comfortable. Yes, school is starting to pick up and is getting stressful sometimes, but there are just those days in the fall that make you happy to breathe. And if you hate fall, well too bad. I loooooove it. Reminds me of cross - country a lot. I miss running. I don't think I'd want to run here at TCNJ but high school was great. And if any of you out there are cross - country runners, you'll know exactly what I mean when I say that some days you just go outside and smell race day. Makes me happy.

Anyways, I went for a run today. My usual is two miles but for some reason I decided to go out for four when I got back from class. I absolutely did not regret it. I miss those long run days. It really just makes you relax. silly. So after my run I rewarded myself with an iced caramel mach at the lib cafe with meal equiv. #7dollaholla

Finally got my stuff together and showered and headed to the library for loads of fun. And fun was had. I got ahead for some classes (computer science) and I'm dragging a little reading in others(...Global Women Writers *cough*). It's alright. My motto for school work has always been "It'll get done." Mostly because it always does. No matter how much work I have I always manage to get it done and I just have to take it one subject at a time. That's really all you can do, so...it'll get done.

There is this amazing website called rainymood.com that plays rain and thunder and sometimes you hear birds too. I give it total credit for my productive library sessions. It helps me focus without words to focus on. Like classical music...except who doesn't love a little rain?

So eventually I was STARVING (surprise!) and got dinner with Dan and Deanna. Now we are in the process of helping Dee with her logic homework. E.Z. I gave up and decided to get working on my Disney pic of the day:

Disney Pic of the Day #3:

Dan picked it out. I'm not quite sure what she's holding but I just look up a picture online and draw what I see. UGH. I want to work in Disney so. bad. I would die. Tomorrow's pic will be better. Any suggestions?

So now here I am after a nice day listening to Kings of Leon. I've been on a streak lately. Obsessed with the new album. love. Looking into all kinds of new music though. Aly gave me a HUGE list of songs to download once and I've barely got through any of it. It's all on post - its. they. are. everywhere. I'm also going to go through old songs. Laura showed me this song on a Colleen's Corner (Miranda Sings) YouTube video one day over the weekend and I can't get it out of my head. It's great.

Whitney Houston. Gotta love her.


Well, that's life.

Lady and the Tramp.

TwizzlersTwizzlersTwizzlers. never.again. Oh TCNJ, what a great time. I swear all that you need here are great friends and it's almost a guarantee that you will have fun. And OH did we have fun....

So after quite the night, Aly and I got up and got ready for my 10 am class. Packed everything up and headed out to the car. GET THIS. I thought that I lost $30 yesterday and was rullll sad about it, because I wouldn't be able to go and buy food and go to the diner and fat shack and all that craziness. (uhh yeah, of course I want food....surprised?!). ONLY TO FIND THE MONEY BY THE CAR. made. my. day. So after jumping up and down and Aly telling me to get in the car because I would be late she dropped me off outside of my class and I made it right on time. Things were seriously looking up today.

After my CS class I went to the lib cafe for meal equiv. Definitely a smoothie kinda day. I went with stawberry-mango. Perfect choice. So I went to Anthropology next which wasn't so bad. We talked about relationships in a culture. There are more than you think. Questions asked were things like: How do you identify with people who are not your family? How do you represent yourself as part of a relationship with anyone? What kind of material evidence is left behind in relationships? And stuff like that. Kinda cool.

Global Women Writers was painful. ugh. "Going off of that..." UGH. I thought I'd love this class...but it's just a lot of reading really. I could rant forever.

Finally freed from that class I made a stop at the bookstore. Got ANOTHER book for the WGS class (that's seven!!) and grabbed a couple of drawing pencils. I was really excited about it. So I got some fries from the stud and met Dan and Deanna back in the room. After nearly falling a couple of times off of the dressers, desks and beds, we got the lights up in the room. Makes it so cozy. Laaaaaaaave it.

Oh yeah...this happened too.

So eventually Dan had to go to class, Deanna decided it was nap time and I finished my homework. Then I tried to read my book a bit but decided that a chat with Heather was better. Love those. I eventually got hungry and jumped on Deanna to wake her up. She was confused. So we went to go eat and had an especially awkward time. usual.

To end the day I drew a Disney Pic of the Day while watching Friends. Today was Lady and the Tramp. I don't know why but I'm loving this idea. And the pencils. love the pencils.

Here it is, Disney Pic of the Day #2:

Well, that's life.

Tangled.

Today started alright. Then it got great. So Laura stayed for one more night. We ended up just watching The Emperor's New Groove, eating popcorn and Reeses' Pieces. quality. So, with a bit of an earlier start than yesterday, we got meal equiv once again. Mocha creamices...let's just say it was an interesting choice.

Then we waited anxiously for my mom to come so we could get some more food for lunch...shocking that we were eating again, huh? ;) So we went to Applebee's for lunch. I got spinach and artichoke dip and ate all of it. Then Laur and I decided dessert would be a great idea and I got a chocolate OVERLOAD:

With our stomachs full, we headed back to campus to drop me off and say goodbye. For some reason, it was rough. I miss home. I miss the beach, I miss the fall in Point Pleasant. The sea air, the seagulls, the sounds, the small town. I feel comfortable there just walking around. I'm almost too contained here. I want to ride my bike with my friends. I know it's silly because they aren't there either and we all need to move on to "bigger and better things" and all that...but there are days where ya just miss it.

So, I went back to my room. Texted Aly. She was driving so Mrs. Spano answered and gave me some great advice. Reassured me that it would be fine. Then I got a fantastic text message asking "can I sleep over?".  happy. OF COURSE. So a few hours later Aly is driving around the loop at TCNJ. Got a parking pass and came back to the room. Made our rounds to see Andrew and Carl. Deanna was at a field hockey game and told us she would be home around 8. Time: 7:35. We wanted to surprise her. It was so worth it. She walked in the door to find Aly sitting on her blow up mattress and screeeeeamed. so great.

By then it was time for Breaking Bad. E.P.I.C.

Disney pic of the day #1: Tangled

No tracing involved. I absolutely looooooove drawing. Definitely more to come. ESPECIALLY Disney. I swear I will work there someday.

And of course, a selfie with Aly's glasses:

Love 'em.

Now we have such a night planned. Girls night sleepover. Girl talk, snacks, and (of course!!) lots of laughing involved. so excited. I love these people. <3

So, that's life.